Today I am reflecting on the many identities I have taken on over the years. Similar to my father who I do not have a relationship with but who passed on some of his flighty genetics, I dive headfirst into a new idea, project or hobby and let it become and define me. While it is a fun ride when in the throes of a new obsession, it is always a letdown when it ends and I have little to show from my madness.
Here is a short list of the many identities I have had through the years:
Hippie until the Patchouli eventually wore off
Feminist philosopher- can’t say that one fully died away
Wannabe veterinarian until I learned how to express anal glands which led to the less icky job of…
Animal welfare activist working fundraising until I had children
Studying CPA until I had my daughter and found numbers way too boring in comparison
Grocery list designer/entrepreneur until only a few businesses sold them and the rest went to a natural foods co-op
Buddhist until I got tired of reading books about it
Knitter until I finished a 4×4 square and felt satiated
Seamstress until I completed an ugly dress
I made burp cloths too!
And now, blogger.
Writing has been my passion from a young age and blogging is a fun way to fulfill that passion while gathering feedback and friends as a bonus. The problem is that I am currently in a slump, creatively constipated. I fear that my burning addiction will run its course but I don’t want it too. I want, for once, to stick to something I start. Writing makes me happy and I need to keep the flame stoked while allowing down times to occur.
The woman I am hoping to be from this point on is just me. I am 35 years old and defining myself through what I do is no longer acceptable. I am a jack of many trades but want only to be the master of my domain which can include anything I decide to jump into along the way as long as it is for fun and not definition. Finally, after years of searching, I believe I’ve found myself and hope that it is not just another passing gig.
How many faces have you had? How do you stay focused?